When I talk about my faith in God, I
am sometimes accused of believing in fiction. Imagine this, an ardent fan of
the atheist writer Ayn Rand, talking about God. It’s like a serial junk food junkie
trying to promote healthy foods. It doesn’t connect. It doesn’t make sense.
It’s simply crazy. But when I think about it, it actually connects. Ayn Rand
talks about individual rights, about the right to happiness; and no man should
be treated as a sacrificial animal, and here we have positive version of
Christianity talking about a man’s right to happiness and need not to sacrifice
like Jesus Christ. Of course like majority of most Catholics here
on earth, I was initially initiated to a form of Catholicism that emphasized so
much about penance and sacrifice; one would think God is one powerful sadist.
But as I grew up and got acquainted with other Christians (like the born again
movement) and a more positive form of Catholicism courtesy of Bo Sanchez, I
came to realize that Christianity empowers people to be the best they can be,
and be proud of being humans.
Aside from an encounter towards a
more positive form of Christianity courtesy of Joel Osteen and Bo Sanchez; what
restored my faith in the existence of God and Christianity is the
social support network which I find missing in many affiliations I have joined
into. When family support is absent or weak, where can individuals run
to? Where can they go? If your family unit is messed up where do
you go? Imagine being terminally ill or suffering financially hardship and your
own loved ones and friends abandons you. Christian groups have
support groups for practically every human tragedy one can think
of.
Before I am accused of being a Christian
fundamentalist, let it make clear that I am not down playing other religious
faiths. Right now I am explaining the reasons why after years of being
inactive in Christian faith, my religious conviction got restored, in
spite the fact women priesthood and same sex marriage is still an
impossibility within the Catholic church; and reproductive rights is still a
controversial issue. In my own
personal tragedy, I come to appreciate the support from Christian individuals
that I would normally be skeptical of. I was impressed by their never
ending supply of compassion.
I remember the late President
Cory Aquino. She was a woman of faith and religious conviction. I bet if she
didn’t possess the faith and religiosity that she was known for she would have
taken the easy route and just leave her husband at time of his incarceration.
She could have made her life easier, divorce him and re-marry. But Ninoy
Aquino was lucky. She had a wife who has a strong resolve backed by religious
conviction. He made a smart choice when he married her.
My father is also pretty lucky to
marry my mother. My dad went to rough times in business and became sick for
years, yet my mother never left his side and remained faithful. Until his
death, she was there by his bed side. My mother was a woman of religious faith,
and kept her wedding vows to the end. I would be a hypocrite not to admit
that there are still a few times that I find my mother’s religious viewpoints
silly or outdated, but in the end, I judge her for her actions. She
did stay with my Dad through bad and good times even when usual logic would
tell her otherwise; and she kept her commitment. From there she taught me the
concept of “loyalty” and “commitment” and got my admiration and respect.
In summary, my faith in the existence of
God and Christianity was restored by the positive effects of Christian
teachings on people. When people show compassion, when people keep their word,
commitments and stick through their loved ones through tough times, I become
convinced of a higher power that strengthens people to go against the usual
course of self-preservation. It takes great strength of character to stay with
loved ones through bad times. I have seen many people get abandoned at times
when they are needed by their loved ones the most, and noticed those who
stayed are usually those who are accountable to a higher power.